Won the OSF christmas giveaway thing this morning, but turns out i didn't win it in the end cause i didnt follow her on twitter (sigh i rly didnt realise i wasnt following her) so it's pretty sad lol. Sis said it was like 'santa giving you a present but taking it away'.
Felt pretty sad for the first hour or so, but i have been telling myself that It's ok, life has given me so much so much already..
why am i still asking for more?
Sometimes, some things just DONT belong to you my dear, they just don't. No matter how much u wish for them, they just won't be yours. so then I told myself, how about I just learn to be grateful for what I have right now?
Thought about things the whole night afterwards and I think I've been thinking.. pretty hard.
Definitely definitely, i've learned to be grateful for what life has given us. Quote sean's tweet, '@lewlian: Pray not because you need something but because you have a lot to be thankful for.' that tweet rly just shocked me and yeah after a few seconds, I retweeted that tweet because I felt it was so damn true.
I'm grateful that my hard work this year has pulled off and allowed me to attain a much higher GPA this term. I'm grateful to god for giving me so many great friends in my life that have made me laugh, made me cry, made me feel so warm and all. I'm grateful for my family that have been there for me all the time, providing me with such a good life, allowing me to study, travel, shop and all the Shit I do .. including dance & gz. Especially dance, I rly can't imagine living without it.
Last of all, I'm grateful for the life god has given me. I Realised my life is not that bad after all compared to some others .. at least I'm not stuck in Africa/India being restricted of what I can do or otherwise. At least I'm not wandering on the streets begging for money. At least I'm not a girl living in a sexist country that has been raped and disfigured. At least I'm not blind, nor deaf, nor retarded. At least i'm not a girl trying to make ends meet. In fact, I'm living a life so much better than others.
I get to buy what I want, eat what I want, talk what I want, go where I want.
In fact, all these are wants and not needs. I can probably survive on sweet potatoes for my whole life, being content just because I can survive. I don't need to buy all these clothes just to catch up with fashion, I just need something to keep me warm. I don't need these rings and necklaces and earrings.. what are these to someone else?
I get to live my dreams.
But living in this first world country has somehow blinded us all. Hasn't it?
